So while I ponder blogs, writing and such, I am going to take a different approach for the next few weeks. During November I posted images of my adoption experience or about the network of baby brokers that I surrender my child to.

For the next few days/weeks, I am going to embed youtube videos that explain, musically, my adoption experience. These songs will represent the loss, the relationship I had with her father, my feelings at any given moment of reunion or similar.

Feel free to comment on and explain if it hits you and why or ask me a question.

Here is the first installment. It was the song playing on the hospital bed radio the last day I held my daughter in my arms.  It is chock full of emotions for me both of those times and these times.  The lyrics have morphed for me over time and mean different things now than they did then.  Powerful.

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