It takes a lot of courage to release the familiar and seemingly secure, to embrace the new. But there is no real security in what is no longer meaningful. There is more security in the adventurous and exciting, for in movement there is life, and in change there is power. – Allen Cohen
I have decided to start making some changes in my life. They are good changes. Changes in the right direction. Changes that will enable future wonderful things.
However, to enable them I have to extract myself from certain people, places, events or activities.
This is painful. I dont like to let people down. To not be there for them.
I am the type of person to take everything on and find a way to make it all work – no matter how much I lose in the process. I will make myself sick, my hair will literally fall out, my intimate relationships suffer, but I will make it work. I will succeed. I will do for everyone else what was never done for me whatever that may be. I will prevail.
Until now.
Maybe its age. Perhaps its the natural maturation process that comes with age. Perhaps I finally realize I dont have to do everything for everyone for anyone to care about me. Maybe its the recent health challenges I have had. Maybe it is having the love and support of a partner like Rich. I really dont know what it is but my outlook is changing. My focus, my direction, my future.
Changing.
It is all good, by the way.
But it aint easy.