"No one can blame you
For walking away
Too much rejection
No love injection
Life can be easy
It’s not always swell
Don’t tell me truth hurts, little girl
‘Cause it hurts like hell " – Music and Lyrics By David Bowie
From the Labyrinth Movie Soundtrack, 1986
To practice acceptance do you have to know what you are accepting?
Byron Katie likes to use the phrase "loving what is". Well, what if you don’t know what is, IS. How do you love it?
How do you accept something you are not sure is the right thing to accept?
I don’t know what I am supposed to accept. I probably should know that first, no?
Am I accepting a bad reunion? Is my reunion bad?
Am I accepting a daughter whose adoption worked and wants nothing to do with her first family? Do I know that for certain?
Am I accepting that my daughter wants nothing to do with me? Should I infer that from her writings? While she has not told me to eff off, you could read between the lines and assume that. Should I?
What am I accepting?
That I will never know my daughter?
Can I know that for certain?
Justice says "accepting what IS?"
I don’t know what IS is.
How do you accept what you don’t know and don’t understand? Sure, the religious peeps can turn it over to God. Not believing in God, I cannot turn this over to the magical deity floating in the sky.
As a child I was taken to Alateen meetings by my mother. Anyone who has attended any sort of support group or twelve step type program is familiar with the serenity prayer.
"God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference…"
I don’t know what I cannot change. How do I accept them? I believe I am pretty courageous in changing the things I can. I know about them and I attack them head on. I am, however, sorely lacking in wisdom to know the difference.
Where do I go from here?