Today is her 29th birthday.
I find it hard to believe yet I also struggle with the fact my second child will soon be 18. Kids do grow up so fast.
I hope she has a happy day with friends and family she loves.
It has been a few years since I did anything for her birthday (donations, dedications, gifts to her). I do not plan to do anything today.
That is a good thing. The days of spending my day in bed, planting trees, holding a snot rag and grasping for walls have passed. Today is much like Mother’s Day was a few days back. The emotional intensity over the loss of her and lack of reunion with her is gone. Resting in the place I now find a dull sadness.
Read the posts that show up beneath this one in Related Posts to see how things used to be. Â