Reading My Cards

Chariot300A girlfriend hosted a Mystics night Friday night. She invited a medium and a tarot card reader. Note I am not a huge believer. Nor am I a skeptic. My mind is always open. I also knew the medium from two readings earlier in my life. I welcomed the chance to hang with girlfriends as well as get two readings.

It was the first time I had my cards read. It was, to say the least, interesting. Note she knew nothing about me beyond my name and date of birth. I gave her that when we sat down at her table.

As she lays the cards down, the first thing she says low breath, sort of to herself, is “glad that is behind you”. She was referring to a card laid down “behind” the first card.

She finished laying cards and the first thing she comments on is my “voice”. She asks if I am outspoken person, a loud person, talkative. My thoughts are no, not really. Outspoken on topics I am passionate about? Yes. Loud? Talkative? No. More likely to sit in a room and watch people versus talking. She restates her question. She suggests that I have something to say, that I want to be heard, that I am trying to get others to hear me for some reason. To my self, I think “wow, she could be talking about my adoption activism”. I do not offer much, she continues cards and reading and hones in on “your speaking is related to a trauma, not a recent one, something that happened to you a long time ago that has effected your life every day since”. I start to choke up. She continues “It is like you are trying to share what happened to you to make sure it does not happen to others”. Tears begin to fall.

I finally offer to her that I surrendered my daughter to adoption against my will when I was 18 and I “speak” out regularly on the practices that encouraged that action to insure it does not happen to others. She smiles, nods, she seems to think that is what she is reading.

She flips more cards and asks about a medical situation. She asks if my mom is okay. I shrug and say, yes, as far as I know. More cards on top of that one and she restates that the person is closer to me than my mom, a child, a spouse. Was someone recently very ill and they took all my energy? I am unable to talk. She continues. She says I really advocated for this person, I was their guardian, fought for them. I offer up my TBI recovered son as a possibility.

More cards. Education. Am I educating myself? Why is education coming up? Am I a teacher? Do I teach technology? She sees that too. It is incomplete education she says. Am I a life long learner? I chuckle and say if you can consider it has taken me over 20 years to finish an undegrad degree, yes. Perhaps she comments. It also seems that I am meant to educate others (hence that voice statement).

Chariot card appears on the table. This is a card of goals and determination. She suggests I have some very specific personal goals and that I should continue. I state I am comfortable professionally and I make a good living. She confirms that is true but I am not doing what I really want to be doing, that I have other goals in mind. I am a creative, I am supposed to be creating. I am going to, she says, but I am focused on too many things and I need to bring things into myself, focus on me, my goals. I laugh. I do not share I am parenting two sons, working, schooling, volunteering, working on health issues. It may be years before I can drop some things. That much I do share. She nods. But I will and I will have to. The Chariot Card means I am clear on my hopes and dreams and it is only time and attention that is holding me back.

I smile.

7 Thoughts.

  1. You are lucky she did not tell you that something valuable you own was cursed, and to give her that object or give her money to take the curse off. This happened to a friend of mine who is very gullible, and she lost a large diamond engagement ring from an ex-husband. When she realized the Gypsy fortune teller was long gone and she was not getting the ring back (which could have helped her if sold in her current financial situation) it was too late. I was at a conference where fortune tellers were brought in for “fun” and I got a similar line, I was under a curse and needed to give the fortune teller money to remove it. I got up and left, quite shaken. It was not fun.

    What you got is called a cold reading….the fortune teller mentions various possibilities, like asking if your mom is ok. If you had gasped and said “my mom is in the hospital” she would have run with that, but since you said she was ok, she moved on to it being someone else, and you contributed the situation with your son. These people are very adept at reading the cues you respond to and continuing along those lines, while dropping the ones that are dead ends. You do not realize how much you told her by your reactions and filling in the blanks to the generalizations she gave you.

    This was all done in fun at a party, and the reading was positive; I would keep it on that level in your own mind, rather than further pursuing readings of this sort. Tarot cards can be used to uncover inner feelings by a skilled and ethical user, someone you know and trust, but in general mediums and fortune tellers are a scam, and can cause great harm to vulnerable people, both psychologically and in the pocketbook.

    • Goodness. How terrible for you and your friend to be so gullible and taken by such a person. Fortunately, since childhood, I approach such things with more amusement than belief. Much like I do religion, which is not much different in the lies and deciet sometimes spewed by those who practice mysticism. George Carlin comes to mind.

      “Religion has actually convinced people that there’s an invisible man living in the sky who watches everything you do, every minute of every day. And the invisible man has a special list of ten things he does not want you to do. And if you do any of these ten things, he has a special place, full of fire and smoke and burning and torture and anguish, where he will send you to live and suffer and burn and choke and scream and cry forever and ever ’til the end of time!

      But He loves you. He loves you, and He needs money! He always needs money! He’s all-powerful, all-perfect, all-knowing, and all-wise, somehow just can’t handle money!” – George Carlin

      As for my “cold reading” I was intrigued and took it lightly. Much like I would guidance from a Catholic priest.

      • Always one of Carlin’s most classic skits ever. ‘AND HE NEEDS YOUR MONEY’!!!! Bahahahahaha.

  2. George Carlin is great! One of the funniest men ever. By the way I was not taken in by the fortune teller, just annoyed. My friend is much more gullible than me, and she was indeed taken in and ripped off and I did not hear about it until well after the fact. These were two separate incidents. Glad you take all of this woo lightly:-)

    • Take all woo lightly after cutting my teeth on the Catholic woo for too many years. Your friend may have given away a ring to a reader. I gave my child away to strangers at the suggestion of the Catholic woo I was beat with. No more woo for me. I ingested the greatest woo of all and still emotionally vomiting from it nearly 30 years later.

  3. I haven’t had a tarot reading in years but I found them…inspiring. Urging me on to continue. A friend from college did them and i always enjoyed them. Despite the naysaying by some, I think you had a good reading and may feel it’s time to do more of what you want to do with your life.

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