â€œLike ornaments, thoughts of special people brighten the season and warm our hearts” – Unknown
I am not sure if I am happy or sad that one of the things I did NOT do during my 18 years of birthmother exile was have a special ornament for my daughter.Â I can honestly say that the thought never occurred to me.
True to the duality of my gemini sign, I find that both disturbing and oddly comforting.
Regardless of what you did or what you think, Jenna”s post Ornamental Reflection is touching. Reading it made me want to go home today and an place an ornament on my tree in honor of my daughter. My bff sent me three hand painted ornaments this year. There was one for each of my sons and one for my fiance and I celebrating our new home.Â There is nothing for my daughter.
And yet even as I think that, I tell myself I shouldnt bother. I need to stop torturing myself and cease including someone who at this time does not want to be included. And then I question even that thought. And I hop on the crazy reunion habitrail one more time and let my thoughts drive me crazy.
But yeah, go read Jenna’s post.