https://writingmywrongs.com/2012/05/17/search-results/ When a mother is forced to choose between the child and the culture, there is something abhorrently cruel and unconsidered about that culture. A culture that requires harm to one's soul in order to follow the cultures prescriptions is a very sick culture indeed. This 'culture' can be the one a woman lives in, but more damning yet, it can be the one she carries around and complies with within her own mind....." -- Women Who Run With The Wolves by Clarissa Pinkola Estes Thu, 14 Jun 2012 13:59:21 +0000 hourly 1 http://wordpress.org/?v=3.3.2 https://writingmywrongs.com/2012/05/17/search-results/#comment-13748 michelle Sun, 27 May 2012 13:13:32 +0000 https://writingmywrongs.com/?p=2038#comment-13748 I'm in the middle of searching, so I don't exactly know yet, but I can't imagine that knowing would be worse than not knowing. I am more terrified of the thought of always living with secrets than I am of what I might find. I’m in the middle of searching, so I don’t exactly know yet, but I can’t imagine that knowing would be worse than not knowing. I am more terrified of the thought of always living with secrets than I am of what I might find.

]]> https://writingmywrongs.com/2012/05/17/search-results/#comment-13444 Elle Thu, 24 May 2012 06:39:55 +0000 https://writingmywrongs.com/?p=2038#comment-13444 I would search again. Even knowing what I know now. Even knowing how bad it would just break me down to nothing, I would still do it. Maybe it gave my birthmom a sense of peace she didn't have before but in the three years since reunion I have just pushed it to the back of my mind. It's tot hard to think about. I desperately want her in my life and she wants me in hers but she carries so much guilt(so much that she gave my younger sister to her dad to raise because she didn't feel like she ha the right to raise another daughter). Since then she has used meth for the last 10yrs, been clean now for a year but now I feel like I new to wait for her because I fear her relapsing if we reconnect again too soon. I would do it again though. Wouldn't have to ask me twice. I would search again. Even knowing what I know now. Even knowing how bad it would just break me down to nothing, I would still do it. Maybe it gave my birthmom a sense of peace she didn’t have before but in the three years since reunion I have just pushed it to the back of my mind. It’s tot hard to think about. I desperately want her in my life and she wants me in hers but she carries so much guilt(so much that she gave my younger sister to her dad to raise because she didn’t feel like she ha the right to raise another daughter). Since then she has used meth for the last 10yrs, been clean now for a year but now I feel like I new to wait for her because I fear her relapsing if we reconnect again too soon. I would do it again though. Wouldn’t have to ask me twice.

]]> https://writingmywrongs.com/2012/05/17/search-results/#comment-13279 Changed My Mind | Writing My Wrongs Tue, 22 May 2012 16:05:59 +0000 https://writingmywrongs.com/?p=2038#comment-13279 [...] crazy or flighty or whatever. I did intend to share the follow-up to this story the day after I posted it.  I have since decided I am going to share it on my birthday. It makes [...] [...] crazy or flighty or whatever. I did intend to share the follow-up to this story the day after I posted it.  I have since decided I am going to share it on my birthday. It makes [...]

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