I Thought Trigger Was a Horse

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I realize he is a cat and not a child.

I realize he is better off in a home that has another cat that can play with him.

I realize the new owners are a wonderful young couple that I thoroughly checked out.

I realize they invited us to visit any time.

I realize it is far more important that my 5 year old son be safe and comfortable in his own home.

I realize all that.

I do.

But holy crap, this hurts.

Yes, I "re-homed" our cat today. After many months of increasing agression towards my youngest child, I found the cat a really good home.

You realize the last time I left a living thing with another person, right?

Yeah, right.

I thought so.

You can imagine the state I am in tonight.

7 Thoughts.

  1. Oh I’m so sorry about your kitty. I do believe losing a child to adoption causes you to create somewhat un-natural attachments. It is natural to be attached to your pets, however I get overly attached, when my dog Chip was sick and diagnosed with lung problems I was a mess. I just knew, had it in my head that the worst case scenario would happen, that I would lose him. Nope, he just takes steroids occasionally and he is fine. When R & J were growing up I was so over-protective, it was actually you Ms Suz, who clarified this for me about a year ago in something you wrote at ehbabes. We live with our triggers, with our un-natural attachments, with our HUGE fear of loss.
    Hugs to you & big hugs to your beautiful sons as they miss their kitty 🙁

  2. I had a hard time swallowing my mother taking in an adorable dog for more time than she devoted to ‘keeping’ myself (even after our reunion). I know people are more complicated than pets but bothers me. She seemed happier around the dog than she did me. Hindsight says she felt awkward with me and moved her focus to the dog. Sorry about your kitty. I had trouble with our kitty attacking our kids for a time…he stopped when we got a dog… Now he chases our dog. 🙂

  3. I have this problem too. I could not go to a pound to “adopt” an animal, I would come home with all of them. With me, it extends to inanimate objects who I cannot bear to abandon when they have served me well.
    And yet…

  4. Been there, felt that. Even when we’re getting a new kitten, the act of taking him/her from the mother cat reduces me to a puddle.

  5. Oh Suz, hugs to you as you have protected one child by finding a new home for your kitty. I do pro-bono work for an animal shelter and at one point we had 5 cats — because I kept adopting them to “save” them. I hadn’t thought of it in the context of adoption, but I guess that’s what I was trying to do. At least you’re a blessed soul who found a wonderful home for your kitty. As the recipient of all email for the animal shelter, I can hardly express the pain of abandonment so many animals face. You have done a good thing, even though right now I’m sure it doesn’t feel that way.
    Take care,

  6. A while ago a wrote about the total breakdown I had when I heard my Mom was “re-homing” our family cat. I’m sure she didn’t understand why it was SO hard for me. Why I broke down and couldn’t stop crying. At first even I didn’t fully understand why until I was driving home and it clicked. Then I lost it all over again. It’s still hard. Really hard.

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