I must admit I am tired of hearing about you. However, I am sure my lack of desire to hear about you is nowhere near your desire for people to stop talking about you, judging you, sympathizing, empathizing and pathologizing.
Every one is talking about you is anyone talking to you?
All the focus is on your mother and her choices and how your pregnancy helps or hurts her. You know what, Bristol? I dont care. I really dont. It may be because I am not a Republican. It may be that I am tired of the politics and the mudslinging. It may be that I have already decided who I will vote for and no further information is likely to sway me.
But I do want to know, is anyone helping you Bristol? Is anyone asking how you feel about this or are you being railroaded to do what is best for your mothers career and are they wrapping it up in the lovely paper called “best for you and best for the baby?”.
No one asked me what I felt when I as pregnant with my child Bristol. No one asked what I wanted, what I felt, how I felt, or what I wanted to do. I was a non entity. Do you feel like that Bristol? I hope you dont.
I really hope someone, somewhere, anyone is sincerely asking YOU what you want and what you need. If I was near you, around you, a friend of yours, I certainly would. However, my knowledge and wisdom comes only on the heels of being ignored and losing my child to adooption. I pray that your needs and feelings arent ignored, Bristol. I pray (and you should know I am not a religious sort) that if you find the emotional fortitude to voice what YOU want that those you tell respect it. I pray hard for that. You deserve that. So does your child.
Good luck Bristol. Motherhood is hard but incredibly rewarding. I had three chances to find this out but only realized two. I wont offer you any advice or tell you what you should or shouldnt do. I am sure there is an army of so called experts only to willing to tell you. Please do consider one thing: trust your own instincts. Believe that feeling that rises from the darkest depths of your insides. Respect it. Validate it. Roll with it. Whatever it tells you, go with it. Only you, your childs mother, knows what is best for your child. You will be connected to your child in a way NO ONE else will ever be or can ever be. Trust that connection.
And oh yeah, one final thought, I hope you will consider for yourrself and your unborn child: